And who would have thought that the day would come when someone would turn my life upside down. They would manage to overthrow every principle I had built on the idea of ??a "perfect life". Now I understand that perfection is just an illusion. We simply have to look for those things that make us feel good and above all, be ourselves.
This is where my story begins, which is still in its infancy and I hope will be eternal. In October of last year, under unusual circumstances, I met a boy. A man who had nothing in common with the image I had created for the man of my life and perhaps that is precisely what made him so special.
I made this relationship so difficult because of some meaningless principles that I had blindly adhered to my entire life. They were rules that I thought would protect me, but in fact, they only kept me from something real.
Months have passed and I'm still not where I need to be in this relationship... And yet, he's still there. Maybe he's tired, bored, maybe I've bothered him too much... but to me, he doesn't hint at anything. He shows no sign of disappointment, no emotion that could weigh me down further.
Oh, how peaceful I feel when I'm with him... It's like finally resting after a long journey. His presence gives me a sense of security and peace. I feel so good, like I've finally found a place where I can be myself.
I'm a cold person and maybe I don't know how to talk about feelings. I never thought I would love someone so much, but I can say that that boy has changed me more than I thought. With him I learned that feelings are not always words but sometimes they are silence, presence and trust.
At this time, he is going through a difficult situation. My heart breaks when I see him tired and burdened, I feel the weight of his pain, but I can do nothing but stand by him in silence and with all my heart.
I wanted to say a few words as I know how:
My little one…
If you remember, at the beginning of our acquaintance, I sent you a quote "There are no chance encounters, every person in our lives is a test or a gift." Then you asked me what you were to me and I told you to leave it to time. Today, after so many months, I can say with conviction that you are the most beautiful and precious gift that life has given me.
I may not say it often, but I really love you very much. I love you more for the wounds you hide than for the smile the world sees. I want you to know that you are no longer alone, I will be by your side in every situation. I will be there to listen to you, without any prejudice and with all my dedication.
You are a very strong boy and I know you will make it. When this is all over, I will be there in front of you, incredibly proud of my better half.
I love you so much OS!????
- Written for Anabel by a woman, for the “Untold Stories” column – the haven where we recount those moments when the heart wants to speak, whether about the good or the difficult, about the deepest feelings that we don't want to keep inside. If you too would like to share your story, write to us at [email protected] .
