Billie Eilish gave an interview for The Gayle King Grammy Special that aired on CBS on Thursday, where he spoke about the suicide desire he experienced in Berlin in 2018.
"I was so unhappy," Billie said. "I was unhappy and lifeless."
In the interview, Gayle explains that "fame was weighing heavily on the shoulders" of the teen. "It could not go out of public sight and most of the society, which did not understand Billie's life, left. Lonely and isolated, Billie became depressed. ?
"I don't want to scare anyone, but I really couldn't believe it until I was 17," Billie admitted, adding that he had always wanted to hurt himself in some way.
She spoke of a dark moment in Berlin and said: ?I remember one occasion when I was in Berlin, I was alone in the room and I remember the window next to me. I remember crying because I thought I was going to die, I will. "
The singer admitted that the line "I want to end myself" in the song "bury a friend," once made sense.
?It's an excerpt in one of your songs when you say you're going to end it yourself. When I heard it, I hoped you didn't really have it for yourself, ?the reporter said. Billie replied. "I had it for myself, but it also rhymed."
However, the 18-year-old, who has been nominated for six Grammy awards this year, has previously talked about depression and self-harm. Billie says she now finds herself with fans who have mental health issues and urges them not to do something they can't undo.
?I grab them by the shoulders and say, 'Please take care of yourself, treat yourself well. Don't take the next step and don't hurt yourself, '?Eilish said. "It's something that can't be undone."
Source: Yahoo Entertainment
