Yesterday, when I read the topic open here at Anabel, I thought about you. "He / she became the cause of our division!" I thought if you were to see it, the first name I was thinking was me.
I was the cause we split or not? Which, according to you, we have put an end to the past six years without reason, simply because I suddenly woke up and wanted to flee from you.
I do not know if you still think so, but if you've known me, you know it's not like that. The division did not come suddenly or to any of my caprice. We got in early, promised many things to each other, and as long as we both needed two young men with a clear conscience and heart. Perhaps, I will not have the chance that someone loves me as much as you. We grew together, but grew differently. You did not understand and had created someone who was not in me. He had created the portrait of that girl who could not have been the same as the 17th and 26th.
Ika, because it was the best thing I could do for both you and myself. You probably hated me, you called me treacherous, unappreciative and hundreds of other epithets, but deeply I know I was not one of them. Our relationship was over and we did not understand it. We stay together for inertia, for the sake of the years, respect for the respective families and other environmental circumstances outdoors. So we both ?!
In every word was your excitement, mine. Lack of a passionate kiss, but not a humble embrace. I love you, but I do not love you anymore. Maybe I've never loved you, or maybe we're lost along the way ...
That's because I could not hurt you. We would stay for anyone else, but not for us both. Why should I do this to you? Yes why? It is not a sin to deny yourself and others happiness just to avoid the astonishment of those who said: "Well, they had time together, as is the case!"
That's right. When things are over, it is better to shut down without dragging and endless pain. "For the sake of time!" I never understood this excuse. So, I'd better deny myself a life of emotion and emotional stuff than dropping it down for 6 years with you. On the contrary.
I respect you and I would not stay with someone who just thought you loved him. Nor do you love me anymore. Love the girl you imagined to me since I was 16. I did not like it and it did not please you. It's been time for me to see you. I've heard you have someone. Probably, I still have the rage I left, but I did well. One day you will understand why. Until then, I wish you had forgiven me ...
Note: This letter was sent to Anabel.al's editorial office
