Fedez shocks with suicide attempt confession in autobiographical book

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Fedez's new autobiography is set to stir up quite a stir. In a series of heartfelt and unexpected confessions, the Italian artist reveals for the first time details about the darkest moments of his life - including a suicide attempt after abruptly stopping his use of painkillers.

“It’s not the step. It’s not the act. Suicide is everything that comes before it,” he writes in one of the book’s excerpts, recently published on social media. “It’s a process that grows inside you, like a fetus in the dark, whispering to you every day, ‘Enough.’”

Fedez confesses that it all started after he suddenly stopped taking the medications he was taking:

"I let them go like I was throwing away an empty pack of cigarettes. But they had taken over my tongue, my thoughts, my skin. When I let them go, my brain started screaming."

The description of the experience is chilling:

“It was like being in a tunnel with no exit. Not one with a light at the end, but one built of concrete and darkness. And me. Just me.”

He describes the book not as a form of emotional marketing, but as an attempt to understand oneself, to make sense of chaos, and to cope with pain.

"The whole world thinks I'm the one who controls, the planner, the strategist. But the truth is that I chose very few things myself. It was just a mad rush that I didn't know how to stop."

In another chapter, he also focuses on his performance in Sanremo, a scene where, according to him, "the end of everything begins":

"They told me I overdid it. They yelled at me. I didn't show respect. But the truth is, I was just torn apart."

The book was written in collaboration with another author and, according to Fedez, it is more of a therapy than a story.

“I'm trying to make sense of the most painful episodes of my life,” he concludes.