Beatrix Ramosaj told "Big Brother VIP Fan Club" that leaving home has been a period not at all emotionally calm, but now she feels better, she is dealing with herself and music.
Asked by moderator Dojna Mema about the moments after leaving "Big Brother VIP", Beatrix said that the emotional state has gone through several stages.
"I went through several stages after leaving. In the first stage I was very angry with myself. I was irritated at how I had experienced things inside, irritated that I had suppressed myself emotionally in all possible forms, I had been plunged into a dark world. In that state I did not have the power to speak, to think positively. Then the second phase was the phase when I was weighing the good and bad things and realized that there really were more good things for me. I calmed down and was calmer, but the first few days have been very difficult. I was completely numb. I had trouble being present, connecting with reality, realizing I was at home with my family. I watched them [the residents] on TV and I felt weird. ”
At the moment she sees very few residents (ie she sees mainly Donald), because the constant contact with the reality show was not allowing her to enjoy the presence of family members. Regarding Sam's departure - which was commented on as the moment when Donald and Triksa started spending more time together - she said:
"After Sam left, the other residents were harassing us a lot and the situation was embarrassing. I had fun. In those moments I had realized that I had some kind of consent. I knew my feelings and I felt it and in turn. I am very emotional and I live for these feelings. "
Beatrix said she was guessing what comments she might have out there about their relationship, but had not thought about the size.
"Duke e njohur publikun, fansat...ata lidhen me idetë e çifteve dhe sot për shembull ka çifte që janë ndarë dhe fansat janë ende me idenë se do të lidhen. E dija se kishte njerëz që nuk do ta pëlqenin lidhjen time me Donaldin, por nuk e merrja me mend se do të ishin në përmasa kaq të mëdhaja.”
“E shkuara e askujt nuk fshihet. E shkuara është e shkuar dhe ti bën paqe me atë gjë,” tha ajo për momentin kur mbi shtëpi u shfaq një banderolë me datën “9 janar” (e komentuar si mesazh për ditëlindjen e Bora Zemanit).
Në fund të bisedës, Beatrix theksoi se i vetmi faj që ndien është fakti që e ëma është përballur me komentet aspak dashamirëse, megjithatë shtoi, “personalisht nuk e përjetoj aq shumë dhe njerëzit këtë punë kanë, gjithmonë do flasin”.
