I feel nostalgic and that's why I want to write you this letter even though you'll probably never read it. Let this letter be my last act of love for you, before I let you go.
You were my first love. The one that comes suddenly, full of passion, and makes you feel like you're flying in seventh heaven. Until you realize that you won't fly forever.
You once admired me, you made me believe that love is innocent and sincere.
But it didn't last long. Every dream we had was left in the dark. Every promise you made was forgotten. Every feeling started to turn into body numbness and one day you chose to leave.
You chose to throw away everything we had built, you chose to forget what we had and how much you loved me. Above all, you chose someone else!
I was hurt, I was broken, and I realized how the same being who gave you love could give you so much pain. How the same mouth that once said "I love you" now fearlessly says it hates you, even though you've done nothing.
But even though you're guilty, even though you betrayed me, I can't hate you. I know very well that I will never be able to hate you.
It's too late now, even though you've repented. But know that I have forgiven you. I have forgiven you with my heart. With that heart that once loved you innocently and wanted to spend my life with you. That heart that you took in the palm of your hand and then threw on the ground and trampled on.
Now I'm starting to forget you. Because I've realized that there's someone out there who will forgive me everything I deserve. Everything you promised, but didn't do.
I will lock you in a corner of my heart and keep you there forever. Like first love, like a good memory, and I will not remember you for the bad things you have done to me.
But I hope you feel my absence, my love, my devotion, and everything I gave you. But know that it was you who destroyed it.
I will see you from afar and remember with nostalgia how I found a warm place in you. A place that I didn't know would plunge me into darkness.
I wish you the best, I wish you to find someone like yourself and be happy. I will not take revenge, because I have left you in the hands of God and I think He has written everything.
By the miracle of your life (because that's what you call me), please be the best version of yourself for the other one you will have by your side.
Farewell, A.
- Written for Anabel by an anonymous woman, for the “Untold Stories” column – the haven where we recount those moments when the heart wants to speak, whether about the good or the difficult, about the deepest feelings that we don't want to keep inside. If you too would like to share your story, write to us at [email protected] .
