In a touching confession for the program "S'e luan topi" on Top Channel, actress Ema Andrea focused on a difficult part of her life and career where, among other things, she also told about the moment when, for a little while, thoughts of suicide could to have turned into actions.
"Psychosis at 4:48" is a very important moment of mine, not only because a different show was made, [but because it was] a text that made me find myself a lot and maybe for the first time it was a very difficult moment of myself with myself...when I, I could even make fatal decisions for myself. This show has saved me," she said.
Further, she added:
"This show, the arrival of Sara in the room and the writing, but this show, as it were, did the processing, because at that moment Sara saved me."
Emma also shared the reasons why she was dealing with those dark thoughts.
"I was very upset, excluded, I felt like a failure, that I was being taken advantage of, that I didn't succeed. For me it was an extreme loneliness, I was abandoned, on all sides. And I don't forgive those who did it to me, in the sense that I will never let into my heart and space those people who have increased that frustration and exploited me in my weak moments."
"My daughter has saved me and the long process for my life has been done by this show and especially the success of this show in the international arena," he added further.
"It was a thought close to action. It was 10 minutes of work that would turn thought into action. It was Sara, who opened the door, and said 'Mom, why aren't you sleeping?' It was sent by an angel of course, something bigger than me. There is a moment when it seems as if you will catch another light, it is very dangerous. I wish and advise that people stay close to their people, understand them better, that no one can find the real reasons; it is a very dark area, which we can fight by not leaving our people alone.
"Sarah saved me and art helped me process it," she concluded.
"Psycho at 4:48" is the last work of the British playwright Sarah Kane, without clear characters or stage directions. The title of the drama comes from 4:48 a.m., when Kane often woke up due to depression. The work is interpreted as an expression of the experience of depression and suicidal thoughts, but also of isolation, addiction, relationships and love.
