Chrissy Teigen talks about the painful experience and why she chose to photograph it

A few weeks after announcing the news of the child 's loss , Chrissy Teigen shared with her followers an intimate and detailed account of the painful experience, including the decision to be photographed in a hospital bed, which caused quite a few reactions. on social networks.

In an essay published in Medium, Teigen said she and her husband, John Legend, lost their third child a little more than halfway through the pregnancy. She was hospitalized due to persistent bleeding and was diagnosed with partial placental abruption. Chrissy was forced to give birth to the baby, whom they had previously named Jack.

"I knew what was going to happen. After the epidural, I would be encouraged to give birth to a 20-week-old baby, a boy who never survived in my womb (please forgive me for these simple terms). "I lay in bed for more than a month, trying to take the baby to 28 weeks, a safer area for him."

Although they monitored the bleeding for days, hoping that things would improve, in fact the opposite happened.

"My bleeding was getting heavier and heavier. The fluid around Jack was dwindling - he was barely able to swim around. At one point, I swore there was so little I could lie on my back and feel his arms and legs in my belly. After a few nights in the hospital, the doctor told me exactly what I knew was coming - it was time to say goodbye. "He just would not survive this challenge, and if I did, I would not survive."

Chrissy then recounts the most difficult moment:

"I was told I would say goodbye in the morning. I cried a little at first, then burst into tears, barely breathing from the deep sadness. Even as I write this, I feel the pain again. "Oxygen was put in my nose and mouth and the first picture you saw was taken there."

Chrissy writes that he had asked John to photograph the moment, no matter how painful it was, because they knew the child would not survive.

"I told John, who was hesitant, that I needed those photos without having to explain why. He just had to do them. He hated it. I can tell. It made no sense to him at the time. But I knew I would have to remember that moment forever, just as I would remember our first kiss at the end of the hallway after Luna and Miles were born. And I absolutely knew I needed to share this story. "

Following, the model responded to people who criticized her for posting photos on social media.

“Nuk e shpreh dot se sa pak më intereson fakti që ju i urreni fotot. Sa pak më intereson fakti që ju nuk do t’i kishit postuar. Unë e jetova, unë zgjodha t'i bëj dhe këto foto nuk janë për këdo, por për njerëzit që e kanë jetuar këtë përvojë ose janë mjaftueshëm kuriozë që të dinë për këtë gjë. Këto foto janë vetëm për njerëzit që kanë nevojë për to. Mendimet e të tjerëve nuk kanë rëndësi për mua.”

Më pas shton:

“Nuk e di sa kohë priti ai që të dorëzohej. Ky peng do të më ndjekë gjithmonë. Thjesht duke shkruar për të, i kam sytë me lot. Gjithë çfarë di është që hiri i tij gjendet në një kuti të vogël, duke pritur të vendoset nëntokë në shtëpinë tonë të re, atë që blemë duke pasur në mendje dhomën e tij.”

Chrissy falenderoi të gjithë njerëzit që i kanë qëndruar pranë gjatë kësaj kohe, përfshirë këtu edhe të panjohurit.

"I went to a store and the lady at the checkout quietly placed flowers in my cart. The worst part is the fact that there are many women who will not be able to experience these moments from strangers. Please be kind to those whose hearts hurt. ”