It's 2 am and I'm sitting on the couch breastfeeding my 4-month-old son. As I do so I think about how I will respond if I come across the stairs of the palace. I can't think clearly because I'm officially entering the second week of insomnia.
Certainly why they used sleep deprivation as a form of torture. Now, I believe I'm ready to handle everything. Yesterday night was the worst. You decide to hit the ceiling at 3:30 in the morning, do you think this would solve anything? Then this morning my husband and I received an email from the palace administrators.
You complained to our baby that he was sleeping and that the noise was intolerable. We had even suggested that we bring the boy to another room so that the noise would not reach your home.
Reading his email brought me a mix of emotions. At first I felt guilty, then frustrated, and finally angry. How the hell dare you? Aside from the fact that a baby has to sleep in her mother's room at least until she is 6 months old to minimize any risk, where do you find the courage to ask for such a thing? How can you tell a mother to move the baby to his or her room earlier so that you can sleep comfortably?
If you are so worried, go to sleep in the spare room. Or get some headphones. My husband and I are very conscious and know how embarrassing it is to fall asleep. Sorry for you. But, you have to understand that my son is getting the first kits, so he argues. What can I do about it? We can't keep his voice down.
We can't justify it. It's a toddler. Babies cry. All we can do is make him feel safe and give him love. Thus, your sleeping routine will also improve.
Until then, be patient! I had a traumatic birth and as I try to get better, I think of you and the worry that comes from the noise my son makes. In fact, I should only care about his well-being and nothing else. Believe me, I'm a young mom and have no energy for such things, so dear neighbors, understand us!
