At the age of 24 I was diagnosed with mood disorders and I then received antidepressants. I am grateful that the treatment provides an emotional balance, but I am not grateful for the side effects, including the elimination of sexual desire.
My friends tell me to try Chinese couples or Viagra, but they are bypassing an important detail: I have no problem with erections, but when it comes to sex, I'm just not interested. I can have a clutch of girl-stricken girls in the room and the only thing I would like them would be to leave, to see Game of Thrones in peace.
My sex life during my cure is like the difference between a newly opened gas drink and one that has two days open on the counter. I have tried other medications that do not have this side effect, but they all look alike. It's like driving it while the tank is empty.
Like many others, I'm convinced that I'm fine and stop taking medication. For a short period of time, I feel a man again, experience emotions and enjoys sex. But, consequently, I collapse again and have to go back to the cure.
It could be worse than that. Maybe I should make a blouse that says "chooses happiness before sex." The problem is that when I feel lonely, I'm not sure I believe it myself.
Written by an anonymous man for The Guardian
