My husband divorced from life two years ago. He was almost 90 years old when he died and we were together for 45 years.
We went very close to each other and enjoyed sex when we were young. He never lost enthusiasm while I was. This loss of interest was gradual. He retired while I was working. We did not have time, we were not in the mood at the same time. I loved her until the last day, but sex turned into a rare occurrence.
However, when he left this life, I began to recall moments of our sexual life together. At first, it was wonderful. With the greatest desire to re-experience those feelings, I bought my first vibrator at the age of 70, something I would never have done before. Excuse me a pleasure I did not know before and I realized that I was the only lady I had with a partner in my arm. I do not believe I have ever experienced such an intense orgasm.
I would like to have been more courageous and have used sex toys with my husband, but I can not imagine how he would have expected this action. On the other hand, I could probably find out what my body needed.
Now I know exactly what I want, and the vibrator forgives a tremendous physical liberation. Beyond this desire for sex, I have no point in knowing a new romantic partner. I'm just so happy.
Written by an anonymous woman for The Guardian
