I was one of both ... To tell the whole story it would take a whole night, but I will try to sum it up. So much so that a story like this one can be summed up. The beginning is the classic of every story. I knew her for almost six months and was fond of him. From his behavior, I thought he had the same feeling. How many things I donated to myself, but I can not say that less. I remember talking at 4 o'clock in the morning and meeting each other day. He made me believe in love, made me believe that there is a blue prince who comes in the form of a simple man who can do extraordinary things! How naive ... Or no, I do not want to punish myself so much. I was just in love.
He had the power to shake my foundations with a smile. At a glance I could disturb my life. He did not miss a moment to tell me how lucky he was from the day he knew me. We act like we've been waiting for centuries for one another. Now I understand, maybe that's the way it is. He knew and my most common wishes, as could be a visit to Prague. When I said that, he suddenly told me he would go to meet his mother and we could not meet for a week. I understood it because I had full confidence, and for 2 months after returning our relationship was happy.
We lived in two different cities, but only 1 hour away. Throughout this time, I knew only one of his companions, for he, my little blue prince, told me he did not have much friendship. I remember him today when one of his acquaintances told me that I should not believe it, but I do not know why I completely ignored him and decided to trust my feelings and him. Blindly! I did not even think of getting into research to find something about it. It seemed to me that I was treacherous.
She always told me she did not use social networks, so I did not know what to suspect. The day came again when he told me he would go on holiday with the family on the mountain and I felt something different this time. He told me not to write it because there is no wave in the mountain and it is impossible to answer me. His behavior changed.
Along with my friend I decided to look for him for the first time. After many searches on Facebook, I discovered that my love was the love of another ...
The first time he had gone to Prague with him and the second time at sea ... The world was demolished, I did not understand it as I was so blind, but above all I can not conceive as anyone can playing so. Why did you use me when I loved her with all my soul ?! If not love, at least my goodness should impress. How could he keep me for a lover when I loved him all my life ?! All these questions have been made to myself for months.
What I discovered later was even more painful. He was five years engaged with that girl. She was foreign and rarely seen. So this period that was here, spent time with me. So do not let me know about the family. From the pictures I saw later, I understood a loving man who did not think of me at all. What am I doing ?! I decided to keep my grief for myself. I decided not to tell her about the fiancée and leave her alone. What would I do if I did wrong? To say the right I feel empty, without motive, and the days seem silly. I have no enthusiasm for life, but I say it will pass me. It was not bad, but I would not have known it.
Want to know the most beautiful part ?! When I asked for an explanation he told me it was my fault that I did not ask if he was engaged or not. That I was naive enough to believe people (like him). I let him go and make it look like it was all this story, when I was actually dying from within. It has been 1 and a half years since that day, but I still think it every day. I'm back in fasting, I miss her. I do not know why he would have chosen me for nothing, but ... maybe. He is happy to continue his life, and I always curse myself for my "naivety".
Note *: This letter has arrived at Anabel.al's Inbox by a girl who prefers to remain anonymous.
