The Internet, at least the most tangible version, has turned into a warm electronic shoulder, but that does work alike. Every day, hundreds of people write to us for a second or forty second thought. To help those in need of the collective experience of hundreds of thousands of Anabel readers, we thought to post your letters in the form of articles. That way, you find it easier when you find yourself in the same difficulty someday. Thank you for writing and thank you for reading.
I am married for 5 years and have a little boy. I loved my husband, but everything broke when I learned he had a story with his work colleague. I do not know, nothing was the same. Everything broke within me and sometimes I think we're together just for my son's sake. To tell you the truth, I never thought of betrayal either as retaliation or as salvation.
What I understand from my story is that prejudices are of no value when no one knows what circumstances, situations or feelings the other person is fighting for. And believe me, as this is said to a woman who, apart from being an idealist, judged whenever in the air she was talking about betrayal or even flirting outside the couple.
What I always feared happened to me. I fell in love! I fell in love with what was not my husband and it would never be. Just as my boss also was married. I know that most of you read that the "boss" was talking about a "badge" of these guys thinking that it is the classic story of the "chief lover". It was not like that.
I loved her in the first conversation, but I did not agree with her. In my mind my husband came and despite his infidelity, I could not think of such things. I could not like another man. Above me was an even greater fault. I was a mother. In my mind, a mother can not love anyone who is not the father of her child. It would make me dishonest, a bad mother. All these loads in my mind have accompanied me throughout my life, until before me he appeared.
I am still at a young age and I do not use it as an excuse, but at least from my experience, decisions such as marriage or a child should never be taken in the early youth. To the benefit of all. I'm telling you! The last thing I wanted to do was betray, but what I felt was so pure. I had no negative purpose in my mind or plans what I would do next.
I lived between the feeling of guilt and that feeling that I should not feed her anyhow. I have sinned, but I never calculated anything. I do not say this to soften my mistake, after all, I betrayed myself and my principles, but it was my truth. I have to accept it. I loved the impossible man and I lived sunk in guilt, sorrow, and in anticipation of something I could not fully belong to me ...
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