I had gone with six people when I became acquainted with what is now my ex-husband; when I left it ten years later, I had collected 106 sexual partners. At that time I did not understand it, but our relationship was all based on my ability to share sex and love and in his or her wax complex. Emotionally he did not approach me, but physically he did not do it without me.

Besides encouraging me to sleep with casual people and visit sex clubs together, my father encouraged me to work as an exorcist. For years, I spent the evening on a train to London where I paid 250 pounds per hour or £ 1,500 a month to eat expensive dinners and make boring sex in luxury hotels. I continued to do it because the payment was satisfactory and I had some regular clients who were nice people.

I left my spouse after the birth of our only child. It had long since manipulated and became a lot of controllers. Since then I have been linked with people who have tried to make me feel guilty of my past, but I'm not ashamed. I got enough money to pay for the front of the house - meanwhile the salary in the newspaper where I worked was just £ 14,000. I met my boyfriend 18 months ago and told him everything. He wondered and said, "You are still yourself."

In the past, I have confused sex with privacy, but it is intimacy that makes a relationship fulfilling. I had never felt so excited by simple acts of courtesy and affection. Now I feel like I can talk about everything, without feeling as if I'm out of bounds. We just love each other. No one else.